Lent lasted two years for me as soon as.
I used to be in my early thirties and coming by way of a painful divorce. I moved 5 occasions throughout these years.
The primary transfer was brutal- abandoning or tossing away many possessions that had held valuable that means. Images, humorous movies and blend tapes from faculty days, skis and snow boots from holidays with mutual mates, left over Valentine’s containers caught between dried roses.
Deserted, left, gone.
I moved out of our home and right into a tiny condominium with a small creek close by. I holed up and healed with plenty of tears, prayer and solitude in nature. It actually was my time within the desert, considering previous and future.
The subsequent strikes got here on the urging of mates—into neighborhood—in a brand new place throughout city. I may chuckle and cry, drink espresso within the mornings and wine within the evenings with girlfriends who may relate by way of their very own experiences as we lip-synced to Gloria Gaynor’s “I Will Survive”, which turned our casual anthem.
A yr later, I made a remaining transfer throughout the state and over the mountains to Seattle, the place I had a brand new instructing job and a brand new condominium. I didn’t know a soul aside from my sister, however I had an entire metropolis to discover and a brand new life to create. All my worldly possessions match neatly right into a small U-Haul as a result of I’d performed it so many occasions earlier than. It made for pretty mild journey throughout the mountain go.
Like a snake shedding its pores and skin, I grew extra with every transfer and took much less with me. I turned extra cell and agile as I moved ahead into a brand new life that God had in thoughts.
God known as lots of his prophets and disciples to depart outdated lives behind with little greater than the garments on their backs or the sneakers on their toes. Jesus himself went into the desert with few possessions for 40 days to quick, pray and enter into contemplation concerning the new path his life was taking.
Throughout Lent within the Catholic custom, we’re requested to divorce—to separate from—issues we’re linked to. These might be issues in our lives that we could, in reality, love; to make manner for one thing new. And it’s painful, letting go. Doing with out. Weathering discomfort, stretching, and rising.
Whereas I’m grateful for the 40 days of Lent, I’ve turn out to be keenly conscious of how these Lenten seasons can typically play out in my life. What I didn’t know then was that there can be a brand new classroom full of children to show, a neighborhood of latest mates—together with a brand new greatest good friend who would turn out to be my husband—ready on the opposite facet of these mountains.
Once I flip round and look again, I can see how I couldn’t have reached increased floor with out shedding the previous and rising right into a future that solely God may see.
Heather Ruane is a studying intervention instructor at Christ the King Catholic College and attends the parish. Questions and feedback ought to be directed to editor Lucy Luginbill in care of the Tri-Metropolis Herald newsroom, 4253 W. twenty fourth Avenue, Kennewick, WA 99338. Or electronic mail email@example.com.